Love..Oh really!

Long confession! Isn’t it? Sorry…
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Which moment of your life you wish it would never end?
Which is the best time in your life?
Which moment you will love to live again if you get a chance?
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Well in my case, i have a single answer for all these questions:
“The moment i had spent with her”
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The day was 13 August, 2013. It was a shiny morning of Friday but it was going to be a special day for me. I was going to meet her for the first time after 2 months of relationship (And 7 months of talking!). Yes, we were in a long distance relationship so it couldn’t possible for us to meet every now and then. (I went to her place which is about 600 kms away from mine)
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It was a 10 O’clock in the morning. I reached at the place at where we decided to meet and was waiting for her to come. Every second was passing like a year. I couldn’t wait to see her beautiful face. Some depressing thoughts were hovering through my mind that she would like me or not…Do I look enough better for her…and too many. The thought of imagining her beautiful face and little nervousness due to this fear were splitting in my mind simultaneously.
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And I saw her coming. I could see her beautiful smiling face from a far distance. She was riding on her activa and finally stopped at me. Oh God! How one could be this much beautiful? She was with beautiful smile on her, which some months before made me fall in love with her. She was wearing a pink top which I loved her the most. My eyes were continuously starring her. I was unable to move my eyes off from her pretty face, cute smile and bright-beautiful eyes. She has the most beautiful smile on this universe, I can bet! That’s the reason why I always feared that someone else might fall for her smile like I did. She was looking more attractive as she was blushing. I just wanted to fall for her again and again.
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‘sorry nishu, thoda jyada wait karwaya!’ her words broke my starring towards her.
‘Tum ek ghante baad aati to bhi main yahi milta’ I said.
‘Accha!’ And she laughed.
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I couldn’t stop myself as she came near me. I held her with my arms. We did a tight hug as I imagined before. It was decided that whenever we would meet for the first time we would hug eachother for a while.
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You know, some moments are not easy to describe in words. You just feel them. Live them and store them in one deep corner of heart as eternal memories. And believe me all the time we spent was all about such moments together. She was simple, free minded and soul-mate type girl. She used to share everything with me, so do I. We talked, we cared, we laughed, we cried, we fought, all together. Don’t know why, I felt everything was going to be alright and my life was becoming perfect. You know this was my first relationship and I always feel that I should have someone with me all the time and there she was! When I am with her I feel it is so easy to be happy.
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It’s not that we never fought. Like others, We used to fight every now and then and sometimes she used to break up, too but then we usually started talking by the time of hour or two (Yes, that’s what we called ‘break up’ !) Actually the thing was that we couldn’t resist ourselves by talking with each other and I think that was the best thing in our relationship. She used to take care of me like a child. I always felt that it’s ok to be careless because i was having her with me all the time.
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Life was going great but I didn’t know that one fight was going to change my life. We started fighting almost every day with no reason. One day, I received a call after a fight saying that she wanted a break up and she needed some time. My heart skipped a beat for a while. Later I agreed with her knowing that it was just going to be a matter of some hours. (That’s my mistake) But I was wrong this time. She got fed up and started ignoring me. From that day everything started changing. It was a day of 27th june of this year. I thought everything would be fine after some time but It didn’t. She got a job and started enjoying with her new colleagues/friends and here she moved on. Someone special turned out to a known stranger unexpectedly. Ok let’s stop…I don’t want to make you feel bored with this sad part.
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Guys, I just wanted to tell you that True Love is a hardest thing to find. Not everyone in this world is lucky enough to have it and those who have, sometimes don’t value it as much as they should. They take it for granted. And we did that too. That’s the reason we fought a lot most of the times over the things that didn’t really matter. We wasted a lot of the time arguing over the things which none of us really care about. We didn’t know that we have limited time with each other. Otherwise we would have said sorry and resolved our issues much more quickly than we used to. We would have spent more quality time together, would have created more beautiful memories. If we would have valued time, we would have enjoyed every small thing much more than we did but we chose to do otherwise, like many other couples in this world. And one day they regret it like I am regretting it now.
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Its funny how we thank everyone in this world for every small favor that they do for us but we never thank our partner for all that they do. I just wanted to thanks her. Thanks for coming in my life. Thanks for making me special, Thanks for taking care of me like a child and lastly Thanks for loving me.
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Isn’t It funny that how we don’t realize the value of Love unless it’s gone? Today I have so many things to tell but it’s now worthless because i don’t have her. Sometimes I scroll through contact list and just stop at her name but silently put the phone away knowing that I lose a right over her. Still I wonder if somewhere far away, she does the same? 🙂
-Nishit