Mistake

hey admin plz post dis.
Hey everyone one..
I’m 21 / f…
m frm delhi…
m a party animal..so like drink occasionally..
but ek baar mere senior k saath beer pi.. n meko
thoda attraction tha bs lekin pine k baad mene
purpose kiya… usne mna b nhi kiya lekin haa b nhi
kiya… thn usko lga ki mai upset hu n ol.. to ek din
meko smjhane k liye ofc me rok liya… fir clear kiya ki
jisko tum meri gf maanti ho vo meri gf nhi, usko mese
pyar h etc. n us din b pi thi… lekin over ho gai thi to
hum intimate ho gae the… n next mrng he said ki i
thnk i lv her.. to meko bhot bura to lga kyunki usne ek
din pehle sb clear kiya n sb hua b.. n nw pyar b ho gya
usse… thn i said chal thk h… tc n bye bolkr col cut kr
dia.. thn i started drinking on daily bases.. n ek baar
fir mene ovr pi li thi to usko bulaya.. n fir huam
intimate hue… to meko lga ki shayd 1st time kisi k
saath esa kiya tbi itna lv h shayd… thn mene decided
kiya ki jo meko lv krta h uske saath rahu.. n ab uske
saath do baar intimate hui usko bhulaane ko..
i knw bhot bekar sound kr rha h.. n meri glti b h…
ab koi meko bs ye bta do ki mai kya kru future me… i
mean jiske saath abi hua h continue kru?… bt vo b
aivai lgta h meko…
bs itna bta do ki kya kru future me n kese rahu?