I Need a Suggestion- Mumbai Girl

I need suggestion please post kardo ya khud hi suggestion de do..
Female 23,mumbai..
I’m a simple girl fb wagera b month me ek bar use karti thi
Fir yuhi past ko bhulane k lia bat karne lagi boys se ..ab muje kya pata tha muje pyar ho jayega us fb wale ladke se..usse b hogya more than one year sab kuch theek chala..*
‪#‎Abi‬ b chal raha rltion but sirf naam k lie kehte hai na..#
I know ina hi padh kar ab sab bore hogye lekin I need sugstn bus aur kuch ni ..*
Toh bus hum sab bat share karte gaye sab kuch fir kuch din bd milne ki sochhi
Me gayi thi uske city but mil nai paye..*
‪#‎fir‬ bus wo bht roya ki meine aise kyu kia but muje spcl time pe milna tha..
# wo samaj gya rltion chlti rahi usne pswrd shre kia meine b bht close hogye..a
‪#‎i‬ love my papa so much ..
‪#‎me‬ alag rhti thi family se studies k lie
‪#‎toh‬ bus ek din papa ki death ho gayi me akeli ho gyai
# meri friend thi close wo foriegn chali gyi..
# bus mere bf bat karta tha uske x se muje kuch galat ni laga kyunki pyar karti hu na trust hai uspe bht jyda..
# usne band kar dia bt karna uske x se bus fir humri rltion awesome thi blossom kiss emoticon
# fir ek din acident ho gya mera tbi b mera bf love jaan meere sath tha ..bat karta tha
‪#‎ek‬ din pata achnk se me bht crictical situation me thi toh full bed rest ek mahine
# ine hi din me sab kuch badal gya
‪#‎jo‬ mera pyar bf roz phone karta tha msg krne pe b aj wo mujse bol tha h ki rest karo
Jab b me phone kru toh bus haan bolo tk care baby bus 2 mint bat fir cal cut..q
# ab sudnly usne x se bat krna shuru ki I didn’t said nythng
#fir 2 din bad h pswrd change aur kya hogya pta ni ..
‪#‎janbhuj‬ kar meine b phone ya msg nai kia reaction k lia
Usne b ni kia phone tak
Now m ina ro rahi hu muje h pta ni
Mene phli bar papa k bad iske lia ina ro rahi hu
I don’t know what to do ..?
Ap log hi bta toh
Eagerly waiting for your comments ..I hope u people can understand my feelings