I am 19 years old and he is 23. I met him online. We have known each other for 4 years and are in a long distance relationship for 2 years. From starting only we both knew we are completely opposite still there was something that binds us together. In starting only I clearly told him I am not into intimacy and I won’t force myself for it ever. He agreed. But then he used to force in every few months to send him nudes in one or the other way.
Considering this as one of his needs I fulfilled it. I went out of my comfort zone every time just to make him happy. He actually loves me a lot and I do as well. But his toxic traits make me feel terrible. Our fights are mostly regarding pictures only. He gave me the reason that this is how he is. When we met for the first time. He didn’t even comfort me and directly forced himself on me. I felt like a statue there. Later he gave me the reason that he was meeting a girl for the first time and didn’t know how to react.
I was traumatized, at that point I knew I can’t take this anymore. We had a major fight and I still tried to understand maybe he is that way . But then after a few days he told me that we’re going to be having sex the very next time we’ll meet. I was shocked & I denied. He fought with me after saying he isn’t fighting it’s just something he wants. He didn’t care about my will. Everything is okay with him except his sexual needs.
I broke up with him after trying to make him understand. He called, texted from different numbers. I am exhausted in this relationship. I really love him but I can’t take this. And yes he is only with me. This isn’t the case of cheating.
I am not asexual. I am not talking to him anymore.. He is the nicest person I have met in my life till now and everything is okay with him except for sexual things. He takes care of me, loves me a lot and is a good human being as well. I really love him a lot. Am I doing right or something is wrong with me? Please help me.