Confession of Girl meeting her Ex Boyfriend

I met my ex in 2016 during my undergraduate studies at college. We were good friends at first.

He was in a relationship with his ex, but she later cheated on him. After a few days of their breakup, he started chatting with me very closely, expressing how much he missed me whenever I wasn’t at college. He took care of me well and called me “baby.” Since I had attended a girls’ school, all of this was new to me, and I assumed he was in love with me. After a month of his breakup, I proposed to him, and he immediately agreed to start our relationship. The first three years of our relationship went quite well, with only normal conflicts and possessiveness.

After college, we both joined different companies, and things started to change. We were unable to spend much time together, and he reduced his texting time, which created some distance between us. One day, due to unexpected rain, we ended up staying in a hotel and eventually got physically involved. After that, he frequently started asking for an intimate relationship. I refused at first, but he convinced me by saying he was going to marry me, so I accepted to bridge the gap. After a few months, the COVID-19 lockdown hit, and we couldn’t see each other. He also limited his texting time and began playing games with friends, lying to me.

When I realized his dishonesty, I wanted to end the relationship, but he begged me to continue. From then on, it felt like he was not prioritizing
me, and arguments became frequent. During the lockdown, he asked for nude pictures, which I refused.

After the lockdown, we continued our intimate relationship (though I didn’t lose my virginity; we were just physically involved). Initially, I was hesitant, but despite all the fights, we stayed together, so I believed him and accepted it. After five years, we started working at the same company. Sometimes, I felt like he was using me for physical intimacy rather than having true feelings. He would not spend much time talking but was more interested in physical closeness. He would convince me of his love, and I believed him as the years passed.

After seven years of relationship, he started behaving strangely after a new girl joined his team. They began going out frequently, and he would pick her up and drop her off. I was unhappy with his actions and confronted him about it, but he turned the situation against me, claiming I was toxic and doubted their friendship. He said he hadn’t been happy with me for the past four years and wasn’t satisfied with me sexually (issues he had never mentioned before) and broke up with me. He placed all the blame on me, saying I didn’t understand his love and that there were many conflicts between us, but I had only fought for his attention. I begged him to continue the relationship, promising to correct my mistakes, but he said that since he hadn’t taken my virginity, it wasn’t a big deal.

I accepted his decision reluctantly and distanced myself from him. However, since we worked in the same office, he continued to talk to me, leading me to believe he still had feelings for me. I wanted to reconcile, but later I discovered that he was committed to his teammate shortly after our breakup. I realized he wanted to end our seven-year relationship because he was interested in someone he had known for only two months.

I was devastated to hear this. It’s been eight months since we broke up, and I still can’t move on. He seems very happy with her, which makes me question whether all the mistakes were mine and that’s why he left me, or if he never loved me and was just using me for his lust. I’m confused about who he really is.