I met a guy in my office. He was my manager. After being in his team for 6 months, he started connecting with me and proposed marriage. Initially, I said no, but later on, he challenged me to stay with him for 7 days and answer after that. After 7 days, I said yes. I told my parents, and we got engaged on the same day. After the engagement, both families were discussing the wedding.
Now, this guy’s family asked for dowry in the name of South culture. My family didn’t agree on this matter. Later, both parties discussed, and the matter was resolved. Somewhere in my heart, I didn’t want to marry after seeing all this, but again, he convinced me. This time, I didn’t follow my heart. I was blindly following him. I also left my job as I wanted to spend time with my family. I lived in a different city, which was 600 km away from my hometown.
We got married. I was just 25 and not ready for a kid for the next 2 years, but I got pregnant just 2 months after marriage because he was shy to buy protection. Again, when I missed my period, he was shy to buy a test kit. When I was 3 months pregnant, I asked him to pay all the delivery bills, but in the name of culture again, they asked my family to pay all the bills. I fought, but he grabbed my neck, fought with me, and showed his toxic behavior. Later, I went to my hometown for 6 months and gave birth to a baby.
After delivery, my mother-in-law asked for a gold chain for the baby from her son. Six days after delivery, with all those stitches, I fell in the bathroom and blacked out. The doctor told me I was suffering from anxiety and depression. They admitted me, but his family called it acting, which was so heartbreaking. I was not able to get up on my own. He said giving birth and holding stitches is not a big deal, and I was overreacting.
All the bills for marriage and delivery were paid by my mom. We are middle class but did so much. Many times, I got humiliated. There are many situations where he treated me as if a woman is just there to serve a man. I don’t want to be with him but am still staying with him. I was happy, living life freely. Now it feels like a cage. These people are pulling out a bad human in me because all day I hear nonsense and get angry inside, as I can’t show it outside.
These people are actors. I want to start a new life all alone with my baby because I hate him. Should I stand for myself or stay there hoping that one day everything will fall in line?
Question: I want to start a new life all alone with my baby because I hate him. Should I stand for myself or stay there hoping that one day everything will fall in line?
Option 1: Stay
Option 2: Leave