I’m a 26 years old female, and he’s 27. I liked a guy on a matrimony app and sent him an interest in March 2023, but I forgot about it. Then, in April 2024, I found the same guy on a different matrimony app and thought maybe the universe was trying to tell me something. Our parents talked, but I didn’t get any proper response from them. Later, I randomly found his LinkedIn profile (not intentionally) and started stalking him. Eventually, he found out, and we both stalked each other for 4 months.
I gathered the courage to reach out to him through email since he’s currently in a different country, but he didn’t respond. I thought maybe he hadn’t checked it, so after 15 days, I messaged him on LinkedIn, but still no response. I found out he doesn’t have a mother, which created a soft spot for him in my heart. Despite never talking to him, I couldn’t bring myself to look at other prospects, even though my parents are pressuring me to get married.
We would stalk each other for hours, sometimes all day. I wondered if it was boosting his ego or if I was just delusional for developing feelings when we hadn’t even exchanged a word. After no response to my LinkedIn message, I waited two days, still no reply, so I blocked him to try and get him out of my mind. By then, it had become a habit for both of us to see each other online. It was really hard for me to stop immediately, so I created a different account and continued stalking, but less frequently.
He was online all day for another 15 days, and I wondered if he liked me or if I was wrong to think that. After a while, he reduced his time online just like I did, but I feel like he knows I still stalk him. I don’t know what to do. I can’t bring myself to talk to other guys, and I wonder if he thinks I’m not good enough for him. Should I try reaching out again? At one point, I even thought about visiting him in his country, but I don’t want to chase someone who doesn’t want me. Am I delusional for thinking he might like me? Or did he think I was too desperate?