Hi, I wanted to share something. I was working as a lecturer in a private college. A girl pursuing her B.Ed approached me for a relationship. She called me and sent me several texts, but I initially refused her. However, after some time, I started liking her too. We ended up spending five years in a relationship.
During those years, we kissed and had moments of intimacy, but whenever I tried to take it further, she would always say, “After marriage.” I respected her decision. Then one day, out of nowhere, she told me she was going to marry someone else. I was shocked. She had never mentioned that she was dating someone from her caste the entire time. She had been lying to me for so long. She blocked my number, cut me off completely, and married that person. I was heartbroken and cried for many days.
Later, I met another girl and started dating her. We were together for a year, but whenever I brought up physical intimacy, she would also say, “After marriage.” Frustrated, I ended the relationship because I felt she didn’t value me.
Now, I find myself struggling. I’ve never been given the time or care I hoped for, and my sexual desires are increasing day by day. It’s becoming hard to control my mind, but I truly want to focus on my goals and progress in life. How do I stop this desires and focus on what really matters for me in my Life.