Confession of Dikshitha on her biggest Life Regret

So, I had a relationship five years ago. I really loved that guy so much, but unfortunately, it didn’t end well. I tried a lot for him. I even spoke to my parents about him, and they were okay with it. But he wasn’t ready to settle down at that time. He was a man with so many dreams, and I thought I was being a nuisance in his life. I’m the one who wanted to walk away because I felt like a burden to him.

I got a proposal from one of my friends. He handled everything through our families, like a real marriage proposal, and I said yes without thinking. All I wanted was to move on from the man I loved the most.

It was one of the most difficult phases of my life, walking away from someone I would die for. I had sleepless nights and depression, but I never tried to contact him again. All I wanted was not to be a disturbance to him anymore. This happened in 2019, and I got married in 2021. I thought I would move on, but I couldn’t. All I have are his memories. I am looking for him everywhere I go.

I am unable to love the person I have in my life, and I couldn’t be with the one I wanted. I’m faking happiness and love every single day, suppressing all the pain inside me.

I spoke to my ex two months ago. He was taking a great step in his career, so I wanted to wish him the best. We spoke a lot, and that’s when I found out we had some misunderstandings, and that guy really loved me.

It made things even worse. Now, I am drowning in regret. I dragged someone else into my life but was never able to love that person. Faking everything each and every day eats me alive. My heart still belongs to the person I always loved. Yeah, that’s it. Here I am, living with someone I never loved, with the memories of a different person.