Confession of Health Care Woman With a Business Man

I’m now 26F and still in love with my ex boyfriend. We broke up two years ago. Не was my first relationship a long distance fairy tale, everything a girl could ever dream of. We started dating when we were 21 and 20, respectively. He was six months younger than me. Everything was amazingly perfect. We were both ambitious: I’m a Healthcare Professional, and back then, I was an intern. He’s a businessman.

We used to push each other to be the best versions of ourselves. There was lots of passion, a deep connection it felt like we were soulmates. I used to make a lot of DIY gifts for him. Once, I made a 3D sketch of his picture, and literally ten days later (four months into the relationship), he said he wanted to take a break because he didn’t feel like he was in a “relationship.” I took it personally and thought it was my fault.

I begged him, saying, “This happens; the honeymoon phase wears off, that’s why. We’ll make it together.” Those were my exact words. I started becoming more “relationship” or clingy. He used to visit my city twice a month (he’s from a remote place where there isn’t much transport, so I couldn’t visit him often). I still remember the date: it was the 2nd of September 2020.

We met in the afternoon, had a nice lunch together a great time. Then we had our evening Tapri wala chai, and he told me he was going to meet his “college female friend.” Not wanting to sound like a controlling girlfriend, I was supportive and said, “Nice, have a great time.” He dropped me back at my PG and never called or messaged me that entire night. He didn’t respond to my messages either. I thought he must be busy elsewhere.

Fast forward to the next day he started acting distant, and I knew something was off. It was my final exam period, so I was busy studying. Fast forward 15 days later, after my theory exam was done, he broke up with me on a video call with no explanation. I thought it was because I was ugly and fat. I begged him again. He said okay, let’s take a break. The break was going well; we used to talk once a day.

Five months later, he confessed to me that he kissed that college female friend but changed the dates to make it sound like it happened while we were on a break. Three months later, we patched things up. I literally prayed to Mahadev to give me this guy back. Once, I happened to check his phone, and I couldn’t resist checking his WhatsApp. I found their sexting chats. He mentioned how soft her lips were and sent her a meme about how wet she was.

This was on the 3rd of September 2020. I was shattered. But I didn’t say anything because I was grateful we were back together. Fast forward two years later, while we were on our Spiti Valley trip, a guy was being overly friendly with me. It was a group trip. I never gave him any signals I would laugh it off and dismiss his comments. My ex started acting up. He accused me of cheating and tried to break up with me 5 to 6 times in those two months, almost like he was looking for reasons to leave.

I’ll be honest I never had any guy friends. I was a super shy teen. Five months later, I got a sudden opportunity to study abroad. Three weeks after moving abroad, he broke up with me. Of course, I begged again, this time for six months. But by then, he was already sleeping with a 37 years old divorced woman who happens to be a mildly famous singer. Every time I tried to contact him, I would apologize (I don’t know for what), but he blocked me.

He went on trips with her to places we used to talk about. I was absolutely shattered and am still trying to move on with my personal life. The worst part is, he never even apologized. He just abandoned me.

Conclusion: I’m writing this because I know there are people out there who are trying to reason with their partner’s pathetic behavior. Please don’t be too understanding. Please leave while there’s still time. Bunny from YJHD said it right, “Sahi waqt pe kat lena chahiye nahi toh gile shikwe ek ho jate hai.” I wish I had left him long ago because now, I’m way too damaged and still in love with him.