Confession of Rachana with his College Mate

Hi. I wanted to make a confession about the incident which made me anxious because I want to get it out of my system.

Hi, I’m a 24-year-old woman, and I need to share something that’s been making me anxious. This happened 8 months ago when I was in college. I was using a dating app and started talking to a guy from my university, though he was in a different program, so I didn’t know him. He seemed like a nice guy who respected and understood women. We chatted for a few days, and then he asked me to meet. I agreed to grab coffee with him in the evening, as I was uncomfortable with physical things.

We met at a cafe, but he suggested ordering coffee in his car instead of sitting there. Things started feeling off when he asked me to share the same cup of coffee and then tried to kiss me. I refused, and he got a little upset, which showed me his true intentions. I told him “No,” but he didn’t listen. I asked him to drop me off, but he apologized and promised not to do anything again, saying he would drop me back to my PG safely. On the way, he started touching me holding my hand, tucking my hair behind my ear and asking for a kiss, assuring me he wouldn’t harm me. I reluctantly agreed to avoid further trouble, but things escalated quickly.

He became aggressive in his car, kissing me all over and dominating me. I felt trapped and frozen, but what happened next was much worse. He forced himself on me for a B”, and I was too shocked to react. I didn’t know how to handle the situation or what to do afterwards. For months, I’ve been haunted by guilt and shame, feeling like I failed to protect myself. I didn’t report it because my parents are very conservative, and I knew they would blame me for even meeting him.

This has been weighing on me, and I needed to let it out. Thank you for listening.