I am 26 years old female. I was always in that mindset that I will not date or get attach to any temporary person in my life due to loneliness. I got into a relationship with my ex when I was 25. For the first time I really loved and cared for someone. We were good and together and it lasted for an year.
He wanted to marry me but my family never liked him so he decided to break up with me and got engaged to a village girl. By the way I am highly educated and doing a good job but sometimes I feel what was wrong with me.
That he left me why he gave up on me so early or was he using me if he genuinely wanted to marry me we would have together fought with family for our love, there are so many thoughts. In last days of our relationship we had a big fight. I saw two sides of him one was so good and the other one was like I never knew this person.
I feel what is lacking in me is that he left me so easily and moved on so easily. He asked many times for sex, but I use to deny it as I am old school and I want to loose my verginity after marriage. Though we made out 2 or 3 times and I always saw his behaviour gets changed after we do it.
He was the first guy whom I kissed, held his hands and hugged and did many things first. He always made me feel worthless that I am not good enough, I am not good and was unsupportive it feels pathetic to see him with someone else.
The girl he is marrying will get everything which was mine. And the worst thing is he will have sex with her. It feels terrible to imagine him with someone else.
I am confused how to move on I dont want to get married to a wrong guy or date a wrong person please help me how to overcome this thoughts
present generation love doesn’t last for many days. keeping someone in mind who alrdy left you just makes ur life worse. good dat u dint agree for sex. dating or marrying is a prblm to u. try connecting with someone as a friend who might help u get out of the situation or atleast make u feel better