I met him through an online app. We started as friends, but he began flirting with me from day one, constantly telling me he loved me from the moment we met. After a month, he confessed that while he was initially flirting, he had developed real feelings for me. He said he liked everything about me how I talked, who I was and I believed him. I got really attached. During a small argument while we were still friends, he said that if he wanted, he could have many girls and even showed me sex chats with paid girls from an app.
When I asked why he was using the app, he said it was suggested by friends after his breakup and claimed he didn’t know much about it. That gave me bad vibes, like he was a bit of a playboy, but I ignored it. As time went on, I realized he wasn’t emotionally invested in me, just constantly flirting. When he noticed how attached I had become, he started ignoring me, saying things like, “I’m busy, be mature.” He was very narcissistic, and I felt a lot of emotional pressure because I was invested, but he wasn’t. He left me with constant doubts and never cleared anything up, always blaming me, calling me immature.
One day, he didn’t reply to my messages all day, even though he was online. Frustrated, I lashed out and used some abusive words. He then told me, “Enough,” and blocked me. He later unblocked me just to say, “You’re the worst person I’ve ever met, I hate you, fuck off,” and blocked me again, not letting me explain or say a word. I tried contacting him through other numbers and apps, but he ignored me. I apologized countless times, explaining I was angry when I used those bad words. Even before that, I could tell he wasn’t really interested in me and probably wanted to break up but hadn’t said it.
Now, because of my mistake, he’s broken up with me, and it seems like he’s enjoying his life without me, maybe even with someone new. I feel like he used me as a time pass, and now that he’s moved on, he doesn’t care at all. He’s narcissistic, and I’ve suffered a lot. I’m emotionally sensitive and deeply attached to him, and I just can’t seem to move on. The memories keep haunting me while he’s happy and indifferent. I even called him two days ago, hoping to patch things up, but he just said, “I don’t have time to talk to you, bye.” I felt ashamed and hurt beyond words.