Back in 2020-2021, I had a friend (K). He was in a relationship with my best friend. As usual, friends often make double-meaning jokes we were doing that, and it led to sexting and sharing some pictures. The very next day, I told my friend about all of this. She said, “You are single, but he’s in a relationship, so he should think about it.” She confronted him, and he said he wouldn’t repeat this again.
My friend then told me to continue talking to him to see if he would make the same mistake again-and he did. I stopped talking to him after that, and we are no longer in contact. Despite this, they stayed in a relationship after clearing everything up. Everything was going fine until 2024 when a college friend approached me for sexting, even though we didn’t share any such bond or conversations, and he was also in a relationship.
We ended up sexting online 2-3 times. Then I realized it was wrong, and I told him we must stop. He agreed, but one day he met me in college and kissed me even after I said no. After that, I made it clear that I didn’t want to continue and I blocked him. We are no longer in contact. I feel like I betrayed the girl he is in a relationship with. I don’t know if he feels the same or not.
But it didn’t stop there. There was a phase in my life when I went through anxiety and depression. I felt I had nobody to talk to about my mental health and problems, so I started talking to random people online. Then I talked to a boy-I really don’t know why I did this-but he started sexting with me, and I got involved in sexting with him too from my real account (2-3 times). I blocked him, but he tried to contact me again, and I blocked him again.
I also had an online friend who is a good friend, but I really don’t know what happened to me-l did sexting with him too. But now I’ve stopped all of this, realizing my mistake and that it’s wrong. My mental health was already affected, and it’s gotten worse with all this overthinking. Sometimes I really think I shouldn’t marry anyone because, after knowing all this, who would trust me? Now I’m working on improving myself and becoming a better person.
Sometimes I wonder, why do I always get stuck in these situations? There was a time I lived very peacefully, but suddenly I got involved in all of this. I feel ashamed. One day I shared this with one of my friends, and now I’m scared-what if he uses this against me in the future?
Please tell me, if in the future I get married, should I tell my partner about this? I feel like I should, the rest is up to fate… because no relationship survives on lies.
Question: Should I tell my future partner about this?
Option 1: Yes, some people will genuinely understand you.
Option 2: No, what’s done is done-forget it and become a better person.
Option 3: Will anyone even accept me?