I was in a relationship in 2017, and at that time, I was in 12th grade. We both loved each other very much. I never imagined my life without him. I always used to tell him that if he left me, I would die without him. After giving him my everything for five years, in 2022, that guy told me that we didn’t have a future together. He said, “I can’t marry you because my family will never allow me to have a love marriage.”
After hearing these words from him, I begged him for two months not to leave me; otherwise, I would die. But that guy blocked me from everywhere. It took me so much time about a year to come out of this. When I finally healed and started feeling happy again, I began to enjoy my own company. Now, the thing is, last year, I met another guy who was older than me, and we started talking.
He was doing a Ph.D., and I was working in a corporate job. After talking to this guy, I started believing in love again. We met this January, and after meeting him, we got physical. I told him about my past, that I had already been involved with someone. At that time, he consoled me and said that these things didn’t matter to him. I was very happy that I had finally met a guy who accepted me with my past.
After one month of meeting, I felt sick, so we did a test, and it showed that I was pregnant. That guy told me that he was busy building his future and that we couldn’t keep the baby right now. He told me we should go for an abortion. After the abortion, that guy told me that he didn’t want to be with me because I had deceived him in our first meeting. Now, I’m facing even more problems because of the abortion.
I’m still experiencing bleeding, and the doctors told me I have a uterine injury. He is supporting me, but he clearly told me that he is not going to marry me. Now, I’m stuck again with a lot of sadness and regret over the abortion. But I can’t live without this guy. After the abortion, my feelings for him have only grown stronger. Now, I feel like I have lost everything in my life. I’ll never be the same girl again, and I feel like I’ll never be happy again.
Question: What should I do now?
Option 1: I have lost everything.
Option 2: I’m dying daily.