I Supported My Family When they are Having Financial Issues

I’m 27 years old now. For almost 15 years, I’ve hoped to break free from my father’s manipulative behavior. My parents had me as their first child when they were way younger than me. My mom, who was just 21, eloped with my father due to an inter religion marriage. She gave up on her family and was cornered by her in-laws and my father time after time.

I’ve grown up seeing my mom suffer, and as I grew older, I started interfering in their fights, especially when my dad landed my mom in the hospital in a fit of rage. I always scored A’s in my tests to keep them happy, got into the best college, and now work at a very good institution with a good salary. My salary can support a family of three, yet I never boasted about it to anyone.

I thought that now, since I’m earning well and settled, my dad would start to loosen his grip on me but alas, it was all a lie. A year ago, my dad asked me to take out a loan under my name for him, promising that he would help me pay it back. I said no, but I still agreed to fulfill my daughter’s duties and happily contributed to their financial burdens.

I don’t ask my parents for expensive things like cars or phones. All I ask is to be allowed to live my life. To stop dictating my plans and to give me the freedom to say yes or no regardless of the timing or place. When I’m leaving, they act all nice, saying they’re happy, but as the time for me to return home gets closer, they start shouting and embarrassing me in front of the people I’m with.

Now, I am through with their hypocrisy and just want to start living on my own but I feel completely hopeless. I have this loan on me that eats up almost half of my salary. I helped them build this house, yet I’m still the worst daughter ever, someone they claim they should have killed long ago according to their own words.

I’m so lost and feel like suicide is my only way out. They have no interest in getting me married and always reject any guy I try to introduce to them. I don’t want to spend my life slaving away for them, locked in my room.

Question: What should I do now?