I don’t know where to begin, but there’s a weight on my heart that I need to let out. I’m a 23-year-old from Kashmir, currently in my 2nd year of MBBS, studying in one of the most prestigious colleges here. Life was always about balancing my dreams with my responsibilities, my studies took most of my time, yet for her, I always found a way. She was my relative, everyone in both our families knew I was connected to.
I loved her with everything I had. She was my priority, my peace after long days of lectures, books, and endless pressures. Whatever she needed my time, my attention, my care. I gave it to her without hesitation. But today, my world crumbled. I found out that for the past year, she’s been cheating on me. She gave her heart to someone else, a guy from Jammu who works as a driver for a travel agency.
It’s not about him or who he is. It’s about the fact that I trusted her with all of me. While I was lost in my books, trying to build a future that I thought we’d share, she was already walking away. She destroyed the part of me that believed in love, in trust, in forever.
I don’t know how to heal from this. I don’t know how to look at someone else and give them the love I once thought was infinite. Maybe I was too busy chasing my dreams to see the reality that was unfolding behind my back. Or maybe I just loved her too much, and she didn’t feel the same.
Whatever it is, I feel broken. I’m not angry at her; I’m just lost in my own silence. How do I love again when the one I trusted most taught me what betrayal feels like?
I’m really depressed. I don’t know what to do.