I want to share something very private, something that only my distant cousin and I know about. It’s strange, but it brings us comfort and we have never thought of doing anything beyond. It started accidentally and we want to continue this and nothing more than that.
So, We’re 27 and 25 now, and she’s the elder one. Growing up, we were neighbors, and whenever our parents had to go out, they’d leave one of us at the other’s house. During those afternoons, after playing, we’d sleep together. At first, we’d hold hands while sleeping and it became a habit over time. As we grew older, holding hands turned into hugging while we slept.
One day, when I woke up in the middle of our nap, I realized her hand was on me between my legs, and my hand was resting on her chest. We didn’t do anything beyond holding. But since then, this has become our unspoken routine. Now, whenever we’re together, after a hug, my hand stays on her chest while hers rests on my boobs, but it’s always over the clothes and nothing inside. It’s never gone beyond that, and we’ve never talked about it. After we are awake, we just speak and behave normally as nothing happened.
This strange habit comforts us more than I can explain. We fall asleep peacefully every time we sleep like this, and neither of us wants to stop it. I promise there’s no intimacy between us, and we don’t even want that, it’s just this small thing that we both seem to need. We try to take a good nap whenever we meet, like in family functions or trips.
I know I’m going to get so many negative comments and abuses for this confession, but I needed to get it off my chest. It’s been on my mind for a long time, and I just wanted to let it out.
-Anonymous