I met her around 2016 online. I was in training and never expected her to reply to my messages, but one day, she finally did. She thought I was lying about my profession, so I sent her my picture. We started talking, and I never thought I had a chance with her. She told me she loved dogs. God!! She sounded so cutely dramatic when she used to tease me.
One day, she told me she was an emotional girl and couldn’t have a fling. And, of course, due to caste differences (parental issues), we couldn’t have a serious relationship either. I tried to convince her to at least have something casual (I thought I’d make her fall in love), but she refused and started distancing herself. Then she said she had started liking someone else. I was devastated, and we eventually stopped talking.
After a few months, I got a message from her-she tried to convince me to talk to her again and told me she felt differently about me. She had already told me she had lost her virginity to that guy, but I accepted it because I was in love with her. She asked me to come and at least meet her parents, but maybe I wasn’t ready, so I refused.
We started talking again and planned a trip. Before the trip, we got into an ugly fight where I said many abusive words and called her characterless. I know she cried the whole night. Although she was furious, she still came on the trip. I was happy to see her.
During the trip, she saw me secretly messaging another girl-sending kisses and heart emojis-and we fought again. I apologized repeatedly, and she forgave me. I lost my virginity to her, and I swear it was surreal because it was her. Everything went fine until she went home. After a few days, she started distancing herself again.
We fought once more, and she decided to break up with me, calling me toxic. By that time, I was insanely in love with her. I begged her to give me one more chance, but she didn’t listen-she had already decided to move on. She even mentioned another guy just to make me feel like she didn’t love me anymore.
I begged her to stay, promised to treat her right, and asked for just one more chance, but she didn’t. Eventually, she got married to someone else. It broke my heart, and I still wonder-couldn’t she have given me just one more chance?
Damn, I still miss and love her. I stalk her Instagram profile sometimes. I wonder if she ever misses me too. Not seeking an answer, just wanted to confess my feelings.
Question: Should I message her just as a friend
- Yes
- No