In 2015, I started a relationship with my girlfriend, but in 2016, I discovered she was cheating on me because she already had a boyfriend. However, I was deeply in love with her, so I forgave her, and she constantly confessed that she actually loved me. Unfortunately, her behavior didn’t support me throughout the year, and in 2017, I broke up with her due to frustration.
In 2019, she again expressed feelings and emotions, saying she missed me. We started talking again and got back together, but she cheated on me again in 2021 when I found pictures of her with her ex in a hotel room. When I confronted her, she kept denying it, but I wasn’t convinced. Due to all the cheating and frustration, I verbally abused her, and afterward, she blocked me from everywhere, marking another breakup.
In December 2024, she called me again, and we started talking daily. I knew she only wanted casual conversation for a while, and her mind would change, so I didn’t take it seriously this time. However, she insisted that she was serious and had changed, claiming she really loved me and eventually convinced me.
Although she told me she was already in a relationship with someone for the past 4-5 months, she claimed there was no emotional connection between them, and they were just talking as they were both looking for marriage.
After talking for two months, we had a fight because that guy would sometimes come to her place to stay. When I asked her what was going on, she said nothing physical was happening, and she was just taking time to end it.
However, this situation repeated itself, and in February 2025, I had another fight with her. Suddenly, she said she didn’t want to continue the relationship and blocked me from everywhere.
Ten years have passed, and she is still lying and cheating. She tells everyone that I am the love of her life, and throughout these ten years, she has always wished me a happy birthday, even when we weren’t in a relationship. She has also called me every 2-3 months, but I haven’t called her back, not even once. She always said I am the only one she loved, but how can someone cheat and hurt the one they love? I know she faked everything-her feelings, emotions, love, and care.
How can someone do this for so long? What are her feelings for me? If she didn’t love me, then why did she keep telling me she did all these years? I’m feeling bad because I always believed that being loved by someone you love is such a fortunate feeling. But when she chose that guy over me, everything vanished. It seems she faked it all these years. What should I do now? Did she ever love me, or was everything fake?