Ladki pyaarsm shaadi-Pyaar!!

M Ek ladki k sath relationship m tha 4 saal.. Relation k strting se hi pta tha.. hm dono kavi shaadi nai kr skte .. ladki ki family k karn.. in 4saalo m wo hamesha kehti thi.. jb o chali jaiyagi tb m strng rahu.. January m uske liya rista aya.. hm dono ko lga.. this is our end.. fir maine thk kiya apne liya mujhe move on krna chahiya.. maine kiya.. but o rishta tut gaya.. nai bani baat.. but m decision le liya tha.. nd move on kr chuka tha.. o wapas aa gayi.. mujhe nai pta kb tak k liya.. aj itna mahina ho gaya.. na m dil se ushe mita paya.. na o.. but mere andar o nai rha.. dedication.. ab bhi pyar krta hu care krta hu.. rota hu chinta hota h.. boht guilt feel hota h.. i knw o mere liya ro ri h.. dil m bojh sa bn gaya h.. kya karu o mujhse boht pyar krti h.. but shaadi nai karegi ghar k against naa vag jaiyagi mere saath.. boht ajib h.. zindegi bhar ya guilt na jaiyaga jishe m chaha itna pyar se rakha ushe hi m itna rula rha hu.. or dekh rha hu..