I’m a male and 27 years old. I wanted to share an incident from 10 years back which I never had the courage to share with anyone.
We and some of my dad’s office colleagues went on a family picnic on the day of Christmas 2014. My father’s boss had a daughter whom I have never met before, and she was 4 years older than me. During the picnic while we were taking rest after lunch, we started to talk. Half an hour into talking, I felt her hand on my trousers. I felt odd as it was the first time I was touched down there by anyone, I asked her what she was doing, to which she asked me to Sush and enjoy. Then she continued to do it. I felt freaked out, but I couldn’t say anything because I thought she might create a scene and everyone will think it was my fault.
Later that night, she again came on to me and kissed me. I didn’t kiss her back, because till then I was traumatized. She took me to the backyard of the picnic garden and opened herself up. I was wondering what would happen if someone saw me like that. She touched me again, and made me touch her too. It was my first time experiencing anything like that, so I didn’t know how to respond. It continued for 15 minutes.
The incident still keeps coming back to me. People might end up with comments like “you enjoyed yourself”, but no. I didn’t. For the last 10 years I have had girlfriends and hookups, and I enjoyed my life and still keep enjoying myself. But I do not, even for a single moment recall and cherish the Christmas of 2014. I was forced. I was forced against my will. I wish I had the guts to speak up and shout. I’m sorry to myself that I didn’t, and that lack of courage will haunt me for the rest of my life.