I don’t know where else to share this, but I need to get it off my chest. I was deeply in love with a girl for three years, and she loved me back too, at least for the most part. When I first proposed to her, she took seven months to accept my feelings. I waited patiently and sincerely because I believed she was the one. Everything seemed perfect initially, but our differences slowly crept in. She was a topper, excelling in academics, while I struggled to keep up. She tried to help, but I just couldn’t match her expectations, and we broke up several times, only to reconcile each time.
Eventually, I joined an aviation course, and that’s where another girl entered my life. She liked me and started caring for me in ways I hadn’t experienced before. Although I didn’t feel much for her at first, her warmth and affection eventually drew me in. I made the mistake of getting too close to her and even becoming physical, but deep down, I still loved my first girl.
When she wanted to come back, I couldn’t resist. I lied about the new girl, hid the truth, and tried to repair my relationship. However, the two of them ended up meeting, and everything fell apart. I cheated. I own up to that. But I’ve changed.
I worked hard to stay in my first girl’s life, even as just a friend. But then, a new guy came into her life, and her friends convinced her to move on. It crushed me. I loved her more than anything, yet I felt powerless to win her back. Despite everything, I only want her happiness now. I’ve been blocked on all platforms, but I still wake up every morning thinking of her. I even talked to the teddy bear she once gave me, wishing her well as if she could hear me.
The guilt of cheating haunts me every day. I’ve tried to make amends, but my mistakes overshadow my efforts. Life feels like a constant battle between my love for her and the reality that she’s gone. I just wish I could go back and undo my wrongs.
How do you move on from someone who meant everything to you?
Does the pain ever truly go away?