So, I was bored one day and decided to install a random dating app. That’s when I met this guy 6 years older, from a different religion, living 1000 km away. His voice was intoxicating, he was smart, charming, and completely opposite of me. From the start, I made it clear that I wanted something casual and didn’t expect any long-term commitment. He seemed fine with that. But there was something about him that made my heart race. –
Within just 10 days, we started dating. This was my first official relationship, and both of us got equally attached. He loved me like nobody ever had before, helping me heal from past scars. I had been through a lot before, and I was being extra cautious because I didn’t want to get hurt again. I didn’t want to look like a fool, falling for someone who was just playing with me.
He’s understanding, patient, and loving, but the problem is, he’s always busy. And this is a long-distance relationship for now. Lately, he keeps telling me he loves me more, but the truth is, I’m always the one calling first, I’m always the one texting first, and I’m always the one struggling to reach him when I need him. I understand his life is complicated, but sometimes, everything just takes a toll on me.
When I’m waiting for him to call or text back, the waiting feels like a constant reminder of my past, where I waited for someone who ended up leaving me completely damaged. I don’t want that to happen again. With him, my overthinking and restlessness ease when he explains things to me and promises that it won’t happen again. But then the next day, I wake up to no messages, no calls. I text and call him all day, and by evening, I get a 15-minute call. That’s it.
I start wondering if he’s just bored of me. I honestly don’t know what I’m supposed to do in a relationship. If I ask him, he always says, “It’s okay, you don’t have to do anything, just go with the flow.” I feel like something’s wrong, but I can’t pinpoint exactly what it is.
It’s been just four months, but I’ve already gotten so attached. Maybe he’s just a busy introvert or a calm person, or maybe something’s wrong with me, and he’s not interested anymore. Even those intimate, romantic chats we used to have stopped after just a month. I don’t want to come across as desperate or childish in front of him, but I’m at a loss for what to do.
He says he loves me, but I can’t feel it anymore. His actions don’t match his words. There’s nothing left to show he cares, it’s just empty words. I want him to reassure me, but he won’t.
He enjoys teasing me that way. I feel like I’m stuck. I want him to let me go if he’s not interested anymore. Don’t keep me around just to make me feel miserable. I hate this feeling.