I am 37 years old and I couldn’t save my marriage because of my habits. I have issues with my high sexual desires, and I had many girlfriends before marriage and had sex with all of them. Then, I married a girl whom I actually liked. After a few days, we started having fights, and I began to hate her. I fell back into my old habits and started seeking sex outside the marriage. I definitely could have saved my marriage, but I didn’t. I made her upset and emotionally hurt her. She found out about my cheating habits and gave me chances to change, but I continued the same behavior and broke her trust again. Finally, she opened up about this to everyone and decided to separate. She took a strong decision, and I broke down. We got divorced soon after.
After that, I met another old friend of mine and supported her emotionally since she was facing issues in her marriage. She was dealing with a kind of marriage where she got rejected for physical intimacy. She tried her best to win over her husband but failed because his sexual orientation was different, so he avoided her whenever she wanted to make love with him. She was not ready to become physical with me, but her situation of a sexless marriage life finally made her emotionally strong, and she started loving me. She trusted me and helped me in all aspects of my life. She was loyal to me, helped me with money, provided emotional support, and everything. But I, being a cheater, failed to keep her happy. I never understood the value of a loyal girl.
She was serious with me, but despite that, I was having affairs with younger girls, online, and girls among my friends. Every time she was in doubt, I was actually doing wrong by her and kept her in the dark, saying I was busy, there was no network, or making excuses. Finally, she found out that I was sleeping with other women during the two years of our relationship. Though I had genuine feelings for her, I kept ghosting her and played with her heart. I genuinely loved her and wanted to marry her, but my cheating habits made me “zero” today. Now, I miss her badly, but I cannot get her back. I gave her immense pain when she had nobody’s emotional support.
I don’t know what to do now. I am really ashamed of my habits and infidelity issues. She taught me about karma, and she was spiritual too. She always wished for my growth and wealth, but my wrongdoing never had a full stop.
I know I hurt her badly when she wanted me desperately in her broken marriage. I broke her even harder. She gave me multiple chances, though I never tried to change myself and fell for anyone who approached me. Now, I am in hell, dealing with pain and sadness. I have nobody now, except for women who can only offer their bodies but not love and care. I lost a diamond-hearted girl, and my business partner cheated me, leaving me even more helpless and dying all alone with financial losses. I wish to get married to a good, loyal woman in my life, hoping for the best. ~ Anonymous
Question: I am scared of bad karma. Will I get a loyal girl?
Option 1: Yes
Option 2: No
karma does it work. u cheated someone who wanted to be loyal even though she was married too.
but u wanted to play with her feelings.
now karma will do it’s work and u better keep it in mind that ur getting back what uve done.
she gave u multiple chances and u failed.