I have been married for 10 years and have two kids. It was a love marriage, and in terms of family, I have the most lovable one. My husband is my greatest strength, he supports me in everything. We are more like best friends, and I can proudly say I have the best husband. We’ve faced all the ups and downs of life together in the past 15 years, and people often take us as an example of a perfect couple. Life feels just perfect with us.
We both work from home and only occasionally have a need to visit the office. I have a vast friend circle, with more male friends than female, but my husband never gets offended or insecure about it. We blindly trust each other. Three years ago, I went on a two-month training program from my office. That’s where I first saw him (let’s call him Mr. A). He was also there for training, but we were in different batches. I could only see him during lunch breaks. The moment I saw him for the first time, I felt a strange attraction, even though I didn’t know his name at the time.
Bas aate jaate usko dekhna acha lagta tha, that’s it. By the time the training ended, I only knew his name, nothing else. Surprisingly, six months after the training, I received a follow request from him on Instagram. I accepted it, and we started talking. He was married too and had one daughter. But unlike me, his marriage was a complete mess. He didn’t have any emotional support from his wife.
Gradually, I became his go-to person. He started sharing everything with me, whether he was happy or upset, got a promotion at work, faced issues, or even memories of his college crush. Sab kuch wo sirf mujhse hi share karta hai. Eventually, we started dating, though it’s more of a long-distance relationship. In four years of being together, we’ve managed to call each other once a week and meet hardly once every one or two months. Sometimes, we’ve had romantic conversations and even had sex once.
During all this, he constantly worries about me. Usko lagta hai ki is chiz se meri family me Itna koi issue nahi hoga, par tere husband ko pata chalega to tumhari life spoil ho jaegi. Bahut baar humne koshish ki ki let’s end this, par nahi ho paa raha Kabhi kabhi i feel ki main mere husband ko cheat karke galat kar rahi hu. Kabhi lagta hal ki use main apna 100 percent deti hu, to kabhi thoda sa khud ke liye nahi ji sakti? But at the same time, I fear that my own actions might destroy the beautiful life I’ve built.
It’s been a month since we last talked. Usko yahi bola maine ki let’s end this, warna meri life kharab ho sakti hai. Time laga, but he convinced me for my own sake. Yet, the truth is, we still can’t get over each other. Aisa bhi nahi hai ki main apne husband se pyar nahi karti, I love him very much. Aur aisa bhi nahi hai ki main Mr. A ke sath sirf situationship me hu. Kyunki, he never demanded physical intimacy, But still, mujhe abhi bhi uske sath baat karne ka mann hota hai. Main kya karu?
Kya ek insaan ko do logon se pyar nahi ho sakta?