It’s been a few months… My world turned upside down when I found out about my husband’s infidelity. We have been married for 14 long years. We didn’t have any ongoing issues well, that’s what I thought. I just can’t believe he’s over me. I went through all of his chats with that other woman so intimate, full of emotions. He has never been so expressive toward me all these years. He never cared for me the way he showed care for her.
Those weren’t just chats he poured his heart out to her while butchering mine. They shared pictures with each other. My husband replied to one of her pictures, saying the lipstick shade she was wearing didn’t suit her and that she looked more beautiful with a natural shade. They even discussed things like how he would call her once lunch was served. I was the one serving lunch all these years.
They were still chatting when I was going through their conversations. I kept the window open. He came, saw it, and started justifying things as men do in these situations. He said he was about to tell me everything, but he didn’t. He never told me that he was bored of me. He never told me that it bothered him that I was not in good shape. He never told me that he didn’t love me anymore just as I never told him that he was the only man in my life.
I have two children. My daughter was diagnosed with a rare skin disease when she was nine months old, and it became severe at the age of six. Since then, I have been struggling to bring her comfort. Taking care of her is not easy the screaming while taking a bath, the struggle of applying lotion, combing her hair, or cutting her nails. She has developed a phobia of getting hurt over the smallest things, and I am the one facing it all alone.
My husband used to slam his room door whenever my daughter screamed in pain. Since he works from home, I thought it was just a natural reaction while working but no. The truth is, he is not capable of handling tough situations. Not because it’s about his daughter, but because his mental peace is more important to him than serious family issues. He avoided so many things like this and started living in his fantasy world with that woman.
Yes, it has been a few months, but the wounds are still raw. I have completely become a different person. I lost everything my dignity, my self-respect, my confidence everything. After that incident, it took me 5 to 6 days just to register what had happened. The pain was unbearable. Even after knowing what I was going through, he kept talking to that woman, justifying it by saying he wanted to end the relationship on a “good note.”
I mean, why? Why was it so important for him to end it on a good note when they both knew what they were doing was not just wrong but selfish? Cheating is not a mistake; it’s a choice. My husband chose to cheat on me. He could have avoided all of this. I asked him directly if he got physical with her. He denied it. But deep down, I know he lied. For him, it was a mistake. But for me, it’s a lifetime of trauma, insecurity, trust issues, and feeling unworthy of love.
The beautiful life we built our home, our family, those precious memories will never feel secure again. I’m tired of wearing a mask, pretending everything is okay when I’m breaking inside. Someday, I might forgive him for all this, but I will never forget what he has done to me and our children.
may God give strength and happiness to u